That day was funny! Mom and I had a good time with it! Everyone thought she was nuts for doing it but I'm glad I got to help her out with it.
This time it was for real though. Mom passed away on July 29, 2008. We buried her Aug. 1, 2008. The sisters and I had to come together and make some tough decisions. But the tougher part is yet to come.
The day to day routines we will try to get back into: work, school and our families. The past three weeks have been like a blur. The last thing Amanda and I did with Mom was eat at the Tea Room here in town.
Our Mom was the glue that held our little family together. Now we have to try and make it without her. She was my best friend! I don't know how to do it. I keep thinking that we have relatives that smoke, drink, have done drugs and they are still alive. Mom didn't do any of that and look what happened.
We have had lots of family support over the past few weeks and for that we are very appreciative.
The funeral was nice...as far as funerals go. Our cousin did a slide show to music for us. Mom loved to hear Barbara Streisand so we used a couple of her songs. Our great uncle did some of the service then my husband Mike did the rest. They both did a good job.
At the visitation there were 225 lines signed in the book and it was standing room only at the funeral. It was very humbling to see all of the people that Mom touched.
As for the relationships with my sisters...I talked to the youngest and we are ok. The other two I still have to talk with. If this is the way the God wanted us to make up and get along with one another, He could have found another way to do it.
I'm not angry or mad at God for allowing this to happen. I'm just not seeing the point of it right now. What would His purpose be for this? What lesson am I suppose to learn??
Anyway...I love you Mom and you will be deeply missed!!!!!!
2 comments:
Dreama,
You're right, getting back to some kind of "normal" isn't going to be easy, but just know that, although the pain never really goes away, each day does bring it's own healing. Just put one foot in front of the other and take one small step at a time. God will carry you through, even when you don't know it's Him. One day you'll realize you've found a new "normal", and it's ok.
Still praying for you,
Jennifer
I have read this post about 6 or 7 times and each time finding myself speechless about what to comment.
It is so hard to lose a parent, especially when they are so young. It's not the way that we picture our parents leaving this earth. Neither your mom nor my Dad "fully" lived their life in our eyes. They were so young still. Yet, it's not our eyes that knows what truly is best.
After reading Michael's tribute to your Mom today, I realize that he couldn't have stated it better. He said, "That cancer the doctor said she had, didn't kill her. The fluid on her lungs, that didn't either. The infection in her body didn't phase her one bit. It just seemed right to God to take her out of this world for Himself. None of that stuff whatsoever could have held her down anyway."
We, as Christians, have to truly believe that it is better to be with God than to experience all the joys of being on earth. As a result of that belief, we have to get to the point of sincerely knowing that it is also better for our family members and friends to be there too.
God took Phyllis for Himself. She is giving Him the ultimate glory by being in His presence right now, and by the testimony of her fun loving spirit on earth.
I pray that you will be comforted, even though I know your heart is pouring open right now. Like Jennifer also said, each day does bring it's own healing.
Love you much,
julie
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