Today is one month that Mom has been gone. It still seems like a dream/nightmare. It seems like yesterday that we all sat in her ICU room and listened to her heart stop beating. To add insult to injury, our cousins, 18 year old son was involved in a car wreck on Wednesday.He didn't make it. It's so weird. Their world will be a blur for quite some time. They will go into his room, just wander around, look at all of the stuff in his room, smell his clothes and cry. They will keep themselves so busy that they won't have to think about anything.
Cause once you stop, then you think.
And while I'm on the subject of thinking...What lesson am I suppose to be learning here??? That childrens and parents hearts can be broken?? I mean, its a TOTALLY different hurt, but its hurt just the same. It's really kind of strange. Tracy, our cousin is the father of Wade, the 18 year old. Tracy is related to us on our Dad's side. When Mom and Dad divorced, Tracy still came out to the house to visit.
That side of the family still thought of Mom as part of the family. And quite a lot of them came to show their respect to Mom. We asked Tracy to be a pall bearer at Mom's funeral. Now he and his wife are having to deal with the loss of their little boy.
What is going on here? Whatever it is...I wish it would stop.
3 comments:
Oh, Dreama. I'm so sorry your family is going through all this. I wish there were words to say, but as you know, there are no words that can help the grief you feel in your heart. Just know that we're thinking about your family.
Leslie
I heard about it yesterday. That is so awful. Our hearts are so heavy for Tracy and the whole family. We love you all.
As Cindy and I were hugging last night, she said "It's been one month today."
Who in the world would have thought this was a possibility?
Maybe the question isn't "What am I suppose to be learning?", but "What can I learn?"
Right now, the only question going through my head is "Why?"
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