Coming clean

As a kid growing up in the 80's I remember looking at "stars" and thinking "boy, they have it made." That the grass is greener on the other side...is it or is it not???? Recently, Valerie Bertinelli released a book about her life and weight issues. I can totally relate to weight issues!! Praise God, 12 pounds are gone, but it seems as though I'm stuck there. Anyway... I remember watching One Day at a Time and thinking this girl is so cute and sweet. You know, wanting to be "just like her."
Then she had to go and marry this guy...probably one of the best guitar players around. Someone totally wild and seemed to always have a good time. Who didn't want to hang out with someone fun and exciting???

Actually, come to think of it, I did hang around a guy who was totally wild, exciting and ALWAYS had a good time. But in the midst of all of that there was drug abuse, alcohol abuse and suddenly the grass didn't seem any greener.

Fortunately, we found someone who helped us through, maybe one day these two will find Him also. Isn't it strange how you think some people have it made...

Another thing that I will admit to is...We use to watch Saturday Night Wrestling from the Sportatorium in Dallas, Texas. Now, come on...admit it. YOU did too!!! Of course, everyone wanted the Von Erich's to win. Everyone wanted their autographs and to be near them. OH, and to be able to do "THE CLAW."
People actually paid money to see them wrestle at Texas Stadium and have saved memorabilia from those matches. Can you believe that?????
Anyway, just thought I would blog about ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! And reminisce about the past, a little brain dumping. I need to do that every once in a while!!!

Strange order

To start off, let me say that I love my momma! She has put up with quite a bit from me in my teenage years: Sneaking out of the house, saying I am spending the night with one friend and spending it with another, not necessarily telling the WHOLE truth at times and totally driving her crazy.

But someone had to clear the path for the younger three. Heck, by the time my youngest sister showed up, Mom was tired and didn't care. At least that is what we tell sister#4, I'm just sayin'.

Anyway, Mom called me today and said that she has a job for us to do, meaning me and her. Now, I usually do things for Mom since I live one block over. We both enjoy antiques, gardening and trying to build things. This year we both intend on having the Garden of Eden in our yards.

I put the Christmas lights on her house, help her move furniture in and out, taking soup, 7Up and crackers to her when she's sick. You know, ordinary daughter stuff.

The strange order that I received today will probably be the most honorable, I guess...in a morbid kind of way.

Mom is taking care of all of her "last minute" things. Safe deposit box, will, instructions for the 4 girls, picking out a plot, etc.

Come to find out if Mom buys her head stone and takes it out to the cemetery and plants it herself she will save $100.00. DO YOU SEE WHERE I'M GOING????

Now, this wasn't even a request. It was more like: "I can save $100.00 if I take my own head stone out to the cemetery and put it on my plot, so you're going to help me do it".

Dreama: "Excuse me"?

Mom: Uncontrollable laughter!!!! And my Momma is a loud, little woman. Key word: LOUD!!!

It kind of runs in the family...

WOW!!! I couldn't believe it! This woman who gave birth to me wants me to go with her to the cemetery, mix up some sack crete and place her headstone on the spot she wants us to bury her.

In a way, it's sort of creepy but then again at least I get to do this with her instead of for her.

And of course, pictures and blogging of the event will take place as soon it happens.

You make me feel like dancing...not

WOW!! After finding out who is going to be on Dancing with the Stars this season I really didn't feel like dancing.

It's suppose to be Dancing with the STARS. What is going on with that???

Telenovela star Cristian de la Fuente
R&B singer Mario
Magician Penn Jillette
Actor Steve Guttenberg
Olympic Gold Medal Figure Skater Kristi Yamaguchi
Former tennis pro Monica Seles
NFL Player Jason Taylor
Actress Shannon Elizabeth
Radio/TV personality Adam Carolla
Actress Marissa Jaret Winokur
Oscar-winning actress Marlee Matlin
Actress Priscilla Presley

Who are these people??? Yes, Steve Guttenberg, 3 Men and a Baby movie, Ok
Marlee Matlin, Actress, alright
Priscilla Presley, the only thing I know about her is she WAS married to ELVIS.

Needless to say, I'm can't find anything exciting about this season. I don't think I will be able to Dance the Night Away.

Survivor is back on but I've only seen the first night of it. "Johnny Fairplay" disappointed me by giving up so easily. Fans of the show expected him to actually play and play "fair".

My two favorite shows have let me down, what is the world coming to????

Love is...

Happy Valentines Day!!!

After much thought on this subject, I have made a list of what love is and what it really means. I wanted to share it in case someone was having a hard time trying to figure it out.

Love is...never having to say your sorry??? Yeah, that one has been around and OVERUSED.
Love is...surprising your husband with a Valentine's Day card when you haven't given him one in 19 years!
Love is...taking the time to make sure your child learns their mulitiplication facts, even if it kills both of you.
Love is...taking your dog to the vet at 8am and learning about anal gland draining, don't ask!
Love is...making sure your children have milk and cereal in the morning.
Love is...having clean dishes and utensils for said milk and cereal.
Love is...allowing your child to visit a third world country WITHOUT you.
Love is...sharing Jesus Christ with your family and having your heart squashed!
Love is...cleaning the bathrooms at the church!!! Need I say more?
Love is...clearing your calendar to spend more quality time as a family!!!
Love is...taking your sick Mom to the Dr. and hoping she doesn't have the same problems as the dog!
Love is...trying on a pair of jeans that you haven't worn in over a year and you can get them on, button and zip them up!!! Praise God!!!!
Love is...being able to record "Little House on the Praire"
Love is...taking your child out for a special lunch.

And of course,

Love is..."Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is...knowing that someone loved you so much that He died for your sins.

Don't Breathe

OK, I couldn't resist. Miss Tracie talked about this a couple of weeks ago and I fell out laughing!!! Yes, some of us have a strange sense of humor!!!

Grace and Compassion

It seems when you are at your wits end, God always pulls you through. For the past 4 months, I have cried more than I ever have. I am usually one of those that "sucks it up and moves on" but in this case I haven't been able to do that. I couldn't get the "big girl" panties on and deal with it.

God has shown me in recent weeks that if I don't see Him in something then I probably don't need to be involved. There is a huge difference in doing things "just to be doing" and doing things to further God's kingdom.

It is also very comforting to know that others go through this same thing. Even though you think your the only one who is going CRAZY!!!

Bless my husbands heart! He is such a wonderful person! Truly he is. Through all of this he has tried to help, listen and guide. All of this could have been just a really bad case of PMS, mid life crisis or a huge pity party.

It's a gigantic thing when you are shown that you are validated in cutting back on extra activites in exchange for some sort of order to your life and for you family. It is a huge weight off the shoulders!!

God is so gracious and compassionate! He has gotten us through our tough times in homeschooling, through the changes in the church and in our marriage. If there is anyone who thinks that we have it "all together" they are so mistaken. Even at 41, I don't know that I will EVER have it all together.

After coming to this realization I ran across this blog Heart of the Matter .

I want my children to be my ministry. I have heard it said before... but hearing it and putting that knowledge into practice each day... waking up with a burning fire to serve, honor, love, teach, help, and inspire... THAT is the kind of seriousness I want God to create in me. I want Him to remind me each day that I AM in the mission field... and that I AM affecting the hearts of my children with each word, each tone, each glance, each gesture... I want my feet to not stray or my mind to wander. I want strength, wisdom and patience... and to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He is leading the way.

Heather puts it so beautifully. This is exactly what I have been thinking and feeling. I'm so glad that I have been given so many signs about my choices because most of the time, I miss them!

Have a wonderful week!

Dreama