What do you do when you are told that people are talking and you don't believe them?
Why didn't I listen...I didn't want to believe that "everyone" was saying something and I didn't know about it. Why do people act like this? Maybe it was my fault for not being "suspicious"?
From now on I guess I need to see people for who they really are...especially women! It's so easy to point the finger at others and not include yourself in the problem. It is so much easier to walk away from a problem then to stay and be grown up and find a solution!
Do I now have to be on guard with others because they maybe talking? Do I now have to be "paranoid"? I know that God didn't intend for His church to act this way...the preacher keeps praying that those that are not in "one accord" that God moves them out. He keeps praying that those who want to do His Will to come. It sounds so simple, if people would just leave peacefully.
Evil let loose or a mixed blessing??? I suppose I should be the bigger person and move on. Let it go...
Rom 12:14 Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not.
How do you truly do that? God will have to work on me with this. Because the flesh is getting in the way!
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Why??
Tonight my husband, the pastor, is meeting with friends of ours who helped start the church that we all attend. Actually it isn't your average run of the mill meeting...they made list to share with him. The list contain comments, concerns, issues that they have with the church.
I found out the other day that this friend(1) had "issues". I couldn't begin to tell you where or when it began...but I have an idea.
We have had a few couples join our church that are for lack of a better word..."radical". Now you can be radical about anything and everything but your not allowed to do it in church or at least say it out loud.
Some people need a written statement of "doctrine". I thought the Bible was our written statement of "doctrine"?
Anyway, one of the couples that goes to our church, I have to admit...I was on guard at first too!
I didn't know quite how to take her. But once you get to know her so is a great person. She is now one of my friends(2).
Friend(1) believes that friend(2) has used her in order to get close to our family...soap opera time!!
I now see why preachers wives either have no friends or just a small few...it's kinda like high school all over again...I'm forty years old...I can't play those games again.
I truly love friend(1) and pray that she and her husband will be able to be open minded and let God guide them and not their feelings. I did tell her that no one ever tried to make anyone uncomfortable, on guard or excluded.
It's a shame that people can't come together to do God's work. I don't even know what to pray...except that God's will be done...no matter who's feelings get hurt.
I know that I have had my share of hurt feelings this week...it started out good.
Last Sunday we went to visit a girl who had just discovered that she had a tumor between her spinal cord and bone. Surgery was necessary and we (friend 2) and our husbands went to see her and her parents. The men stayed and prayed with her...the next morning in surgery they found that the tumor was now a blood clot. According to all of the x rays, that spot was a tumor...Praise God!!! Everything went good and she is now back home!!
That was such a billboard sign to me since I had asked F2 why were we even there since these people use to attend our church and left?
She said it was our job to minister to them. Then we get huge news like that the next day!!!
Moving right along...Wednesday is when all of this started...my 40th birthday...that is just what I needed...as if I wasn't depressed enough!!!
God be with all of the preachers wives in this country that are trying to do Your Will!!! No matter what they do, say or don't say it will somehow be turned around or used against them. How do you be gracious after one friend is accusing the other friend of saying unbiblical things?
Friend(1) didn't actually come out and say it but her concern is that the new people are teaching ungodly things...or at least things that she doesn't agree with.
WHY is it that this stuff happens? Is perception reality??? If so, then I percieve that Satan is using a friend to undermine the things of God...reality??? Maybe so.
I found out the other day that this friend(1) had "issues". I couldn't begin to tell you where or when it began...but I have an idea.
We have had a few couples join our church that are for lack of a better word..."radical". Now you can be radical about anything and everything but your not allowed to do it in church or at least say it out loud.
Some people need a written statement of "doctrine". I thought the Bible was our written statement of "doctrine"?
Anyway, one of the couples that goes to our church, I have to admit...I was on guard at first too!
I didn't know quite how to take her. But once you get to know her so is a great person. She is now one of my friends(2).
Friend(1) believes that friend(2) has used her in order to get close to our family...soap opera time!!
I now see why preachers wives either have no friends or just a small few...it's kinda like high school all over again...I'm forty years old...I can't play those games again.
I truly love friend(1) and pray that she and her husband will be able to be open minded and let God guide them and not their feelings. I did tell her that no one ever tried to make anyone uncomfortable, on guard or excluded.
It's a shame that people can't come together to do God's work. I don't even know what to pray...except that God's will be done...no matter who's feelings get hurt.
I know that I have had my share of hurt feelings this week...it started out good.
Last Sunday we went to visit a girl who had just discovered that she had a tumor between her spinal cord and bone. Surgery was necessary and we (friend 2) and our husbands went to see her and her parents. The men stayed and prayed with her...the next morning in surgery they found that the tumor was now a blood clot. According to all of the x rays, that spot was a tumor...Praise God!!! Everything went good and she is now back home!!
That was such a billboard sign to me since I had asked F2 why were we even there since these people use to attend our church and left?
She said it was our job to minister to them. Then we get huge news like that the next day!!!
Moving right along...Wednesday is when all of this started...my 40th birthday...that is just what I needed...as if I wasn't depressed enough!!!
God be with all of the preachers wives in this country that are trying to do Your Will!!! No matter what they do, say or don't say it will somehow be turned around or used against them. How do you be gracious after one friend is accusing the other friend of saying unbiblical things?
Friend(1) didn't actually come out and say it but her concern is that the new people are teaching ungodly things...or at least things that she doesn't agree with.
WHY is it that this stuff happens? Is perception reality??? If so, then I percieve that Satan is using a friend to undermine the things of God...reality??? Maybe so.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Texas Weather
What a difference a day makes... we have a saying here in Texas. If you don't like the weather here, wait, it'll change.
We woke up to freezing rain, sleet, ice and snow. The schools around the area closed except for Dallas ISD. Michael didn't have to go to school today. The seniors would have only had to go until 10am due to the under classmen taking the TAKS test.
Amanda was so excited about the weather that she thought she would get a day off also...Ha Ha, weather doesn't affect Homeschool!!!
It was funny...Michael slept most of the day and we worked. We have started History and so far she is liking it. I love history any way. We are still trying to get subtraction down better. She freaks out when you have more than 2 digits.
But with Gods help and working on it (practice makes perfect) she will get it. We also started fractions. Why didn't someone teach me how to do fractions like BJU? I would have totally understood it. I didn't have good math teachers when I was young.
Speaking of young...I will be 40 years old next week. Man, I never thought I would be 40, out of shape and a stay at home mom. I believe I am slowly becoming depressed!!! I guess all of this should motivate me to do something...nah, probably not.
And another thing...I am trying to do the whole "Fruit of the Spirit" thing...love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfullness, gentleness, self-control. Oh boy...is that hard especially dealing with people.
Amanda turned 9 this month. She is getting so big. We took the easy way out and had her birthday at McDonald's. I took this picture of her and her friend and cousin. They are all homeschooled. It's funny...we all use different things to teach them and they are all very smart kids.
Of course the princess belongs to me. From the time she was born her Aunt has called her a "princess". She actuall
y believes it. She sometimes forgets that her mom is the QUEEN!!!Stay Warm!!! Who knows, tomorrow maybe 80 degrees and the next day we will have a tornado plus we are still in a drought...only in TEXAS!!!!!
Monday, January 15, 2007
Winter Weather
BBRRRRR...man it's cold! Sleet and freezing rain here in Texas! There is no way I am getting out in this. The little town I live in shuts down when the weather turns bad, except for Wal Mart!!
The public school was out for MLK day so we took off also. We do need to take a spelling test and work on some math sheets. We'll sit down and huddle together on the bed so Amanda can do her work.
I looked up the definition of "blog"
Blog is short for weblog. A weblog is a journal (or newsletter) that is frequently updated and intended for general public consumption. Blogs generally represent the personality of the author or the Web site.www.bytowninternet.com/glossary
These things generally represent the personality of the author. From looking back at the post I created I think my personality is all over the place. I have jumped from homeschool to marching band season, church to other peoples personalities.
So let me talk about church:
I don't know why it upsets me so when people don't come to church...I really try hard not to let it bother me. I don't know whether I should be offended by it or blow it off. I'm sure Jesus gets offended by us. I know I have offended him many times!
I am trying. Being a pastor's wife is a catch 22. If you are friends with people in the congregation then people talk about you. If your not friends with people in the congregation then people talk about you. People get offended, people don't like change therefore they use that as an excuse. It becomes their way out.
You know...I'm glad Jesus doesn't blow me off when I offend him or finds some excuse to find His way out! Just imagine how depressing that would be. Not to have hope, not to have the knowledge that if I were to die today that I would go to Heaven.
Some people are so sad. They are living their life in a pit and think that's life. They don't realize that moving, going to another church or not going to church is not going to change their pit lifestyle. All you can do is pray for them. It is particularly sad when it is your family. Sometimes you may have to risk them hating you in order to get the message across to them. What they do with that knowledge is completely up to them.
Our Father who art in Heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
The public school was out for MLK day so we took off also. We do need to take a spelling test and work on some math sheets. We'll sit down and huddle together on the bed so Amanda can do her work.
I looked up the definition of "blog"
Blog is short for weblog. A weblog is a journal (or newsletter) that is frequently updated and intended for general public consumption. Blogs generally represent the personality of the author or the Web site.www.bytowninternet.com/glossary
These things generally represent the personality of the author. From looking back at the post I created I think my personality is all over the place. I have jumped from homeschool to marching band season, church to other peoples personalities.
So let me talk about church:
I don't know why it upsets me so when people don't come to church...I really try hard not to let it bother me. I don't know whether I should be offended by it or blow it off. I'm sure Jesus gets offended by us. I know I have offended him many times!
I am trying. Being a pastor's wife is a catch 22. If you are friends with people in the congregation then people talk about you. If your not friends with people in the congregation then people talk about you. People get offended, people don't like change therefore they use that as an excuse. It becomes their way out.
You know...I'm glad Jesus doesn't blow me off when I offend him or finds some excuse to find His way out! Just imagine how depressing that would be. Not to have hope, not to have the knowledge that if I were to die today that I would go to Heaven.
Some people are so sad. They are living their life in a pit and think that's life. They don't realize that moving, going to another church or not going to church is not going to change their pit lifestyle. All you can do is pray for them. It is particularly sad when it is your family. Sometimes you may have to risk them hating you in order to get the message across to them. What they do with that knowledge is completely up to them.
Our Father who art in Heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)